Comments on: Painful Memories https://henze-associates.com/blog/2009/08/21/cal/painful-memories/ 'cause you know you're curious... Thu, 23 Jul 2020 04:34:15 +0000 hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=6.8.1 By: Cal https://henze-associates.com/blog/2009/08/21/cal/painful-memories/comment-page-1/#comment-16457 Mon, 24 Aug 2009 08:56:47 +0000 https://www.henze-associates.com/blog/?p=1311#comment-16457 Hi Vivien,

Also very well said!!!

Cal

]]> By: Vivien https://henze-associates.com/blog/2009/08/21/cal/painful-memories/comment-page-1/#comment-16456 Mon, 24 Aug 2009 00:27:13 +0000 https://www.henze-associates.com/blog/?p=1311#comment-16456 There is something remarkable about pain and the desires of our heart. It really seems sometimes that to have the courage to feel and investigate what really is going on in our hearts with God is the very thing that allows God to reveal to us the desires of our hearts. The desire for intimacy. I think we try to (I try) to somehow associate the real desires of my heart with good things. ie joy,successful relationships. and while there is no way that that is not true, it cripples if it is limited to just that. When we do not feel the need, acknowledge the emptiness, grasp the hole (blasted crater…) that God can only fill we are left to pretend, deny, run, die, lie, and mostly live in misery.
there is a true intimacy in being heard, in having the courage to reveal the depths of our sorrows without shame. or in coming out of a core relationship with our archenemy – shame.
There is such relief in coming out of hiding.
I know my desire is to see more of this. To know more of this in other people. Honesty. Desire. Truth. Relief. Water. these are the desires of my heart. And regardless of circumstances here on earth, these desires keep us alive, keep us headed to healing, headed to heaven. et al. that’s something. isn’t it? I used to think that seeing someone modeling a healthy relationship was the kicker. not anymore. now i just see that not giving up, forgiving, having the courage to keep living despite constant pain, landmines, seeming hell on earth, is the Jesus which speaks the most effectively. His life over death. In us, for us.
7 years ago i thought that finally growing up would make me old. not. actually it gave me freedom and a youthfulness unexpected. This current time around it is giving up naivety. The naivety that life will finally deliver perfect circumstances. That people won’t hurt me anymore. The irony is that being naive actually contributes to being hurt. profound eh? not really. but still power in believing the lie. so, we will get hurt. but at least knowing that and accepting it and being more ok with it instead of the constant “shock” and indignation lends itself to perhaps more discernment and more trust in God. Knowing He will be walking with us always. Working His way with us constantly drawing us into deeper intimacy. Pain or joy. Better to get burned than to never enter the fire. And naivety? well, it really isn’t something to be afraid of losing. not really associated with anything real. just another form of denial maybe. cause i just “want” the world to work, want to be right with others. no matter how much i learn and how much i get older. just still want it to be right. oh well.
but bring on the other dancers God. how wonderful. and let us not assume by any preconceived notions or sense of what righteousness might look like that any situation or person is “wrong or right”, thereby keeping us from living. or being delighted in Him. and perhaps each other. it hurts to live and love and is full or risk. But it is a far cry better than being dead.

]]> By: Cal https://henze-associates.com/blog/2009/08/21/cal/painful-memories/comment-page-1/#comment-16455 Sun, 23 Aug 2009 09:34:19 +0000 https://www.henze-associates.com/blog/?p=1311#comment-16455 Hi Vivien,

No kidding — there’s just a remarkable depth in that post…

Cal

]]> By: Vivien https://henze-associates.com/blog/2009/08/21/cal/painful-memories/comment-page-1/#comment-16454 Sat, 22 Aug 2009 18:28:11 +0000 https://www.henze-associates.com/blog/?p=1311#comment-16454 Great.

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